meetings

Today I had a meeting with important people at work. I hate that I feel that I am not up to par with them. I get up one day and I am feeling good and ready to work and show them my potential. Then another day I hate work and feel that this is not meant for me. I don't know why I am this way.

Ariana

My cousin Alexia, who I wrote about before got pregnant at 16. She lost her mother to breast cancer. When she met her boyfriend his mother was sick. They moved in next door and Alexia fell in love with his mom and soon after Michael and Alexia fell in love. His mother passes away from cancer of the liver. They connected with these events in their life. Even though it sounds a little morbid, they have each other now. And even though they had huge loses they will always have a connection no one understands.

Alcoholism

Alcoholism sucks. Some where out there in the world my dad is drunk and I have no control over it. I wish I could help him! But I must help my self first. I hope one day I can help others with the same problem and I hope to learn to be happy.

Guadalajara

My grandparents will have been married 50 years in August, so naturally we will have a huge party. So I have purchased my ticket and on August 14 I will be in Mexico once again after 2 years! yaaaay I can't wait!!

Raul Carrera

My baby brother is like my son. It hurts me so much to know that he will soon be twelve. I know that it is a part of life to grow up. I miss when he was my baby but there is no way to stop him from growing up! lol On May 10th he turns 12. That is the Mexican Mothers Day.

William

This guy is one of my best boy cousins. And just like my cousin Alexia there is a funny story to him too. His mother is my moms sister and his dad is my dads cousin. My parents met through his parents. My mom and dad where both living with them and the  feel in love. Funny family stories.

Alexia

This girl is my best cousin. She is like the sister I never had. Its funny because she is my cousin and my aunt. Let me explain lol her mother was my dads cousin and her dad is my moms uncle. He is the youngest brother of my moms mom. crazy huh?

Deleted

My mother, in one of here crazy days, did some weird things to the laptop I gave her. I had pictures and poems and she deleted it all. I will never get those memories back!

depression

Depression is a bitch. I do not wish it on any body. I wish my mom wasn't sick.

Anxiety!!!

Today I have the worst anxiety ever. I have so much going on. My mother is sick and I don't know how to help her. Professor, I hope you read this and you can excuse me from class today. I sent you an email and I hope that I can email you my paper that is due today. I am sick physically and emotionally. I am sorry if I am too personal in my blogging. But this is the only way that I can vomit the feelings I have stuck in my throat.

in class waiting

Im in your class Ms. Oberman. At the moment I have a massive headache. So excuse me if I do not smile all that much. Ella Minnow Pea has inspired me to increase my vocabulary. I know that reading is a big way and I do miss it so. But work permits me not and I focus no my labor when at work. I am dedicated in learning and expanding my vocabulary and in hand it will make me a better writer.

Why?

I am insatiable emotionally. That word insatiable is the definition of me!

tripping out

To think that one can win the lotto is a trip to me.
I do not believe that one can just become rich like that when people work so hard to earn there money. I guess it is just in ones destiny. Blaaah