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I'm not who I want to be. I wonder if I taking the right tack in regards to my career. I want to be a teacher but what I want to be is an English teacher idk what to do?

MID TERM

Mid term today for math... study study study till test time... secretly I dislike this prof.

bloooop

ALL WORK NO PLAY MAKES CYNTHIA A DULL GIRL!

All I have time for is work, gym, study.
Work, gym, study
work, gym, study....... That's all!

Envious!

Well Professor, I am jealous! I hope you have a great time and take a lot of pictures! I can't wait until I have the time and money to travel. 

procrastinating

I hate being a procrastinator!

feeling better

Ah thank you baby Jesus! I feel much better today. My sickness is subsiding and my tooth pain also. A lot of studying ahead of me so I shall see blogger later!

in pain

My tooth is hurting and I'm sick... uh can't wait for the weekend. Even then I have a class on Saturday. =(
I miss the gym.

This is the cutest!!!

in class and blogging

Jejejeje in class and blogging. See my commitment! Lol some people really annoy me. Why can I just not care?? Hmmmmm

back to normal

Things seem to be getting back to normal. I have to learn to be more patient and not let the little things get to me. I'm getting a new car soon and I will be back on schedule. It's a honda accord lx. I'm just happy I don't have to be taking the bus any more.

A gift.

Since Monday I have been having the worst tooth pain ever. I missed work and then I got a fever and now I'm sick. My manager told one of the Dr. that we work with about me having pain and not having insurance to go to the dentist. I get a call from my manager on Wednesday and she tells me that the Dr. wanted to give me $1500.00 to go and take care of the pain!!!! My gosh, I had no idea there were still people out there with a heart like that. I want to thank him and I am so happy I am surrounded by great co-workers. Only bad news is my dentist appointment is Monday so that might mean some bad pain while in class! =/

aaaaaaahh

I hate not having insurance and I do not know what to do with this painful toothache....... I'm going to die!!!
If any one know of a place I can go to, let me know...

I lied.

I lied. I do watch another show other than The Walking Dead. Damn!! Why am i such a sucker for sappy and dumb shows! Well any ways I like to watch Switched at birth. Its a pretty cool show!

quotes

“Me fail english? Thats unpossible.” Ralph Wiggum

grease. summer nights

Grease reminds me of sunny days in high school. The days when either teachers were lazy or it was the last day of school. The movie of choice, Grease! aaahhh brings me back. I know every word and every song. It also reminds me of the kids I hung out with. My little click has greasers. Which means they would wear 50's attire. Think of the guys from grease or Elvis Presley and Marilyn Monroe. Of course I didn't dare try and dress like that for fear of being called a poser. A poser is a person who just copies what they see. So when I graduated I let loose and dressed like it! Now I have a greaser boyfriend and I love the whole atmosphere of it! The irony..... I do not dress that way any more JAJA. Not because of choice but because I gained quite some weight after high school and uuuhhh lets just say its hard to find cloths my size in that style. But in reality it really is my choice since I have let my self get to this point. I Can! fix that... And I WILL!!!

Any ways summer nights is on and I got to go!!

"summer sun somethings begun!! tell me more tell me more!!! like does he have a car!!! "

LOL  

Politics.

All this political talk makes me weary. I feel confused and frustrated. I mean what do you really believe. There are so many questions and feelings. Yeah I know its just politics but man it affects our future and even then I do not vote. What does one believe when there is so much hardship and deceit out there? Then the whole issue with immigration!! I don't know if the naive person is them or me? This world would not be the powerful nation it is without this pot of different colors and flavors but then again how does one go about making an issue like immigration fair?

Then I also get angry because I'm not as informed as I should be. Every day life and laziness is what keeps me under my covers. I watch the news ever morning, though, what we watch is something like "Is snooki really having a baby??!!" I mean really?! the bees are dying and this is what we're talking about?!!!(thanks to you now I know Professor) Any ways just a couple of thoughts with all the media about the republican party and who will win... =/ well good night!

I used to be able to write a poem....

I want to believe that I am sane because I'm afraid
that life is just a game
I've passed so many round who now's
too many punches and it shows
am I finished or near the end?
Am I the super hero or the villain
I really hope that I'm just asleep
and dreaming.
I think I see the exit sign
I'm ready to go home.
Can it really be that I'm feeling a little joy
even though there's no heart and I'm a drawing?
I'm running towards the exit sign but my legs aren't moving
there is some one else controlling me
some one making me stay
But you don't have the right to maneuver me
I am my own person you will see
I can make my own decisions
I take it all back
I'm not a villain
I want to live I swear
just let me out I wont tell
wake me up please
the colors are fading
I'm loosing my training
and I know that I am failing
I going to win I have to
There is one more round I can hear it
the game said fight and I'm already bleeding
I wake up
I guess I was just dreaming 

chiquis you little shit.

My dog Chiquis ruined my inspiration. I came and sat down ready to write a poem. I am barefoot of course since I am almost ready to go to bed. I sit down on my chair and place my feet lightly on the carpet. My foot feels very warm all of a sudden. For a second it feels weird but pleasant before I realize my little doggy peed under my desk and where my foot now rested. Chiquis thanks a lot. Now I'm off to see the wizard.... my shower.

awww now I feel bad hes sitting in the corner after I yelled at him.

Thats chiquis with my mom

The walking dead.

Ok so I have tried not to waste so much time on the television. I used to watch all these stupid shows until I realized how much time I was wasting in front of a screen to see girls getting drunk and saying stupid things. jeje. But this show, the walking dead, caught my attention and know I'm obsessed. So now every Sunday I watch it with my little brother who took a liking to it also. I know that there is so many other things to do out there in this big world but Sundays I give my full attention to the walking dead. For some reason stories about vampires  and zombies always grab my attention and if you really want to know, yes I am a Twilight fan! jajajaa

Sodium laureth sulfate

So basically Sodium laureth sulfate is a chemical used in things that will make them bubble. Right? So what I read is that this chemical can be bad for your hair, skin, eyes. It also states that because it is so potent the skin absorbs it and it is bad for our liver, brain and other organs and that it is also linked to cause cancer. huuuuuuuuh as naive as this may sound or maybe dumb, I would rather not know. The way I look at the world is that there is so much bad that this is something small compared to other problems in the world. We get cancer from smoking and second hand smoke. You can get sick from walking into buildings that have those signs that say "this building has so and so chemical known by the state to cause cancer." are we not going into those buildings any more? There is so many of us without health insurance (including me) and we have all these medical issues and we are going to die any ways. We drink, smoke, eat unhealthy and probably will die before SLS kills us. Now stating that, I have curiously been looking at the ingredients in my things at home ever since reading about SLS. I have been made aware and that is all one can do, unfortunately. The seed has been dug in there and I will pass on the word but I'm not going to lose sleep over it. The way I think might be a reason the world is the way it is. =/

I love this family

My cousin Alexia and I grew up together. Her mom was a very special person. She passed away from cancer and then she met a guy who's mother died right after also. They now have a daughter and a very special connection. I love them both very much. Funny story, her dad is my moms uncle (my mothers moms brother) and her mother is my dads cousin. So in reality she is my cousin and my aunt. kinda funny.

PARTAY!

We had an awesome party last night. I got to see family and we had so much fun. I got to see My cousins and we settled some issues we had. I hope that things change now. I hope things will get better with in the family.

grad!!

My brother graduated on Friday. He graduated from The Los Angeles Film School. I am so proud of him. I know that he is going to be something big. One day you will see his name on the big screens. Adonay Raul Alvarez. Not an easy name to forget!